Back in 2012, Zoella posted the video about her crippling anxiety that changed her life – as well as the lives of thousands of people watching at home. Not only were YouTubers starting to get famous beyond the webpage back in 2012, but they were starting to humanise themselves by talking candidly about their personal lives and issues. And now, in an exclusive interview with Cosmopolitan, Zoella talks about the weekly therapy sessions saving her life.
Zoe, who has been suffering with anxiety since before she started vlogging, shares details of her struggles; “I have had anxiety since before I started doing this. I think it changes and adapts with your life. I have a therapist who I speak to every week without fail and that’s been the biggest help because I’m now doing things that I never thought I’d be able to do”. In fact, Zoella is keen to show that people’s mental health is secondary to “visiting the hairdressers” and “eating healthily”.
One of the more worrying stories from Zoe’s interview is that in 2014 she was mobbed when leaving the Radio 1 Teen Awards in 2014; “We walked out to our taxi and there were fans everywhere. I got pressed up against a car and I really hurt my back. It was quite intense… things like that become something else to work on”. Whilst this behaviour is never acceptable, she believes it’s something she has to “get used to” because her hobby made her easily recognisable.
As well as remembering how her anxiety would keep her bed bound, and has left her in a state of shock when fans come up to her in public, Zoe reveals that she once had an invitation from Prince Harry to come for tea in Buckingham Palace – but she had to turn him down. “I was too scared. I’m working on this anxiety thing, but I’m no quite ready for that. Hopefully he will invite me back. Sorry Prince Harry”. We’ve got our fingers crossed for you Zoe!
The full interview appears in the November 2016 edition of Cosmopolitan – on sale 5th October!