Zoella Says Her Anxiety “Consumed 99% Of Every Thought Of Every Day” In Emotional Post
12 May 2017, 09:57 | Updated: 17 October 2017, 09:47
Zoe took to Instagram to share her journey during Mental Health Awareness Week.
Mental health has been a huge part of Zoe Sugg's YouTube journey. And after opening up about her troubles with anxiety back in 2012, Zoe has become an ambassador for mental health; and ending the stigma surrounding it. Now, to mark the UK's Mental Health Awareness Week, Zoe has shared her story once more; in the hope of encouraging her fans to speak out.
Addressing her 11 million Instagram followers, Zoe spoke openly and honestly about her fight with anxiety and her journey through therapy.
Here is Zoella's powerful update on her mental health journey:
Hello Instagram! It's #mentalhealthawareness week and if you're a new follower of mine, you might not know how close to my heart mental health is, and as I now have 11 million followers over here (thank you btw, how effing cool) I thought it was important for me to share a little bit of my journey with mental health in the hope that it might educate, inspire or encourage some of you.
I've had anxiety & panic attacks through my later teen years right up until today. That's my entire adult life so far. That's a long time. Long enough at one point for me to start living my life according to my anxiety and for it to have felt so huge, and to have consumed 99% of every thought of every day (which let me tell you, is exhausting) that I didn't think there was an alternative. I thought I had to settle and learn to deal with it.
Around 2 years ago I decided to start therapy to learn how to manage & work on my anxiety. I do things now that I never thought I'd be doing but it's been one of the hardest but also most rewarding things I've ever done. There were moments when I'd take 10 steps back and think all the hard work had done nothing, but standing back and looking at how far I've come now makes me realise how it's all been worth it. Nothing worth doing comes easy. There will be mountains to climb and rivers to cross but you can do it.
The hardest part is starting the journey, especially when you feel so isolated, alone & at a complete loss...but you aren't alone. Everyone has something they could work on, even that person you know who looks like they have the perfect life, even THEY have something. As humans we always want to look our best. We look after our hair, nails, skin. We eat good food and work out. We spend time and money to feel good, yet not everyone takes that same time and care on the most important thing, our minds. Don't feel ashamed to speak to someone & don't settle. Take control of your mental health, don't let it control you.
I wish I'd started sorting out my anxiety years before I actually did, and although I'll still have moments I struggle with a little more than others, I'm so proud of how far I've come, and you can be too!
Zoe has been inundated with comments of support.
Followers who feel she was brave to speak about her personal journey have shared sentiments like "Thank you so much for sharing! You have such an important message here, and I can totally relate!".
"Needed to hear this so badly today - thank you," added another.
Zoe is one of several YouTubers who have discussed their personal mental health stories in time with Mental Health Awareness Week; Oli White and Grace Victory also took to Twitter to highlight how important conversations around mental health are.