Jessie Paege opens up about struggles with anorexia in new video

8 April 2019, 14:53

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Benedict Townsend

By Benedict Townsend

TRIGGER WARNING: This article contains details about eating disorders and anorexia.

Jessie Paege has opened up about her struggles with anorexia in a new video and a series of social posts.

In 'i'm anorexic', Jessie talks openly about her experiences with eating disorder, anorexia nervosa.

"I really, really hope this video helps a lot of people because I don't wish this on anyone." She begins. "I have been diagnosed by anorexia nervosa". She says that she was aware that her fans were growing concerned about her, even noting that "it's the second thing that comes up when you search my name".

However she says that she is "a lot better now" and that she has been recovering for a while in private.

She also posted a pair of pictures on Instagram, along with the caption:

"Hi guys...so the past 4 months, I’ve been recovering from Anorexia Nervosa (TW: Eating Disorders) I didn’t want to post anything until I was doing better, and look!! ya girl is healthy!! To be honest, I didn’t think I had a problem. I kept convincing myself nothing was wrong…In fact, I ignored it until it got REALLY dangerous :( I got so insanely unhealthy and sick.

This disease absolutely took over my whole entire life, but I’m taking my life back! I also really want to make the statement that this mental illness is UGLY. Let me educate you all about that. I really want to use my platform to educate so no one EVER goes through what I did...

...I went to sleep with chest pain every night from my body literally using my heart muscle for energy because I was so emaciated. My hair has fallen out. I have osteoporosis, brain fog, and don’t get me started on the hormonal effects. I even isolated myself from all my friends. I felt like I lost my personality. A lot of these things go away, but there are certainly long term consequences. After getting diagnosed, I became terrified of going to the doctor's.

But, it's SO IMPORTANT to check in on yourself. If you’re in a dark place, don’t hurt your body to cope. Your body works so hard to keep you alive..that’s something I’ve really learned to appreciate throughout this whole journey. I’m so happy I finally have the energy to CREATE again! I’m gonna live so many years and thrive!! I’m a bad ass bitch!! And look at my ass!! HOT!! Ok, but on the real, I’m so proud of myself.

I’ll probably fight this to some extent for the rest of my life, but I’m stronger now. No matter what you’re struggling with, keep fighting. I love you all so incredibly much xx ALSO, some of my fave positive accounts I’ve been loving through recovery are @rebeccajleung @meredithfoster @niki and always @nabela! :)"

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Hi guys...so the past 4 months, I’ve been recovering from Anorexia Nervosa (TW: Eating Disorders) I didn’t want to post anything until I was doing better, and look!! ya girl is healthy!! To be honest, I didn’t think I had a problem. I kept convincing myself nothing was wrong…In fact, I ignored it until it got REALLY dangerous :( I got so insanely unhealthy and sick. This disease absolutely took over my whole entire life, but I’m taking my life back! I also really want to make the statement that this mental illness is UGLY. Let me educate you all about that. I really want to use my platform to educate so no one EVER goes through what I did. I went to sleep with chest pain every night from my body literally using my heart muscle for energy because I was so emaciated. My hair has fallen out. I have osteoporosis, brain fog, and don’t get me started on the hormonal effects. I even isolated myself from all my friends. I felt like I lost my personality. A lot of these things go away, but there are certainly long term consequences. After getting diagnosed, I became terrified of going to the doctor's. But, it's SO IMPORTANT to check in on yourself. If you’re in a dark place, don’t hurt your body to cope. Your body works so hard to keep you alive..that’s something I’ve really learned to appreciate throughout this whole journey. I’m so happy I finally have the energy to CREATE again! I’m gonna live so many years and thrive!! I’m a bad ass bitch!! And look at my ass!! HOT!! Ok, but on the real, I’m so proud of myself. I’ll probably fight this to some extent for the rest of my life, but I’m stronger now. No matter what you’re struggling with, keep fighting. I love you all so incredibly much xx 🌻⁣⠀ .⁣⠀ .⁣⠀ .⁣⠀ ALSO, some of my fave positive accounts I’ve been loving through recovery are @rebeccajleung @meredithfoster @niki and always @nabela! :)⁣⠀ .⁣⠀ .⁣⠀ .⁣⠀ PHOTO ON THE LEFT: @dannyrozenblit⁣⠀ PHOTO ON THE RIGHT: @ximenagraphy

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"I'm really excited for this new chapter", she says, at the end, as well as promising to make more videos about body positivity. "I'm so excited to be a functioning human being again" she says.

If you need to speak to anyone about the topics mentioned in this article, or would simply like some helpful information on the topic, please head to the website of eating disorder charity Beat.